hello? hello?

i watch you move so gracefully towards me...

your beauty outshining everything on the street...

body full of warmth...

your hair flowing gently with the breeze...

you walk past me...

and i caught a glimpse of your eyes...

they are distant and cold...

they tell me i do not exist...

i am nothing!

assurance...

went to the ICU of a hospital a while ago.

i saw people hanging to a very thin thread, fighting for dear life.

you can feel their determination even when they are not moving or waking...

the doctors and nurses attending to their every need gives them the love and compassion they need in such a time....

they are hooked to monitors and various machines telling them that their cause is not lost...

they are still in the world of the living...

and i look at myself...

i am not connected to anything signifying that i contain life...

i don't have doctors and nurses making me feel warmth...

so, really, what's my assurance that i'm still alive?