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Glittery texts by bigoo.ws

  

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ambivalence

stop, i can't and i won't anymore
your essence embracing me hot
wasting me, more than before
but leave me not...

stop, i can't and i wont' anymore
kisses so fierce and fiery
i'm smoldered, i rot
but stop kissing me not...

stop, i can't and i won't anymore
tender love, destructive love
you give, you force me a lot
but stop loving me not!!!

with daryl and armiel at the reunion...

 

10th year reunion (Cebu State College - CN '96)....

with my baby Alfons Aris nga liwat sa iya tatay Liu... lol

Your Brain's Pattern

Structured and organized, you have a knack for thinking clearly. You are very logical - and you don't let your thoughts get polluted with emotions. And while your thoughts are pretty serious, they're anything from boring. It's minds like yours that have built the great cities of the world!

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Your Personality Is Like Alcohol

You're the life of the party, a total flirt, and probably a pretty big jokester. Sometimes your behavior gets you in trouble, but you still remain socially acceptable. You're a pretty bad driver, and you're dancing could also use a little work!

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

lesson from Ally McBeal

if you want to end up with the right person, you've got to make it happen!

the best people are always taken,

if you won't steal them - you won't have them!!!

The greatest lesson i have learned is that it doesn't matter what people think.

So, when they tell me to take my liberal thoughts, my strange beliefs, my eccentricism and my pink shirt and transfer to another planet i just had to laugh because...

it's not pink - it's FUCHSIA!

sinulog

my bestfriend jaschik and i at ayala center cebu's sinulog exhibit!!!

 

yes, this is me... i gained 20 lbs. and i'm darker because of my summer job in the mountains of sapangdaku...

any other questions?

Jesse

I was standing in line waiting for a cab outside of ayala. With a heavy heart, i just waited in silence, thinking about how someone made me believe that she's so eager to see me but decided to leave me waiting for her there for more than 2 hours without any explanation or plan of showing up.

my phone's message alert tone went off. D12's D12 World kept on playing inside my left front jeans pocket for a while before i was jarred away from my lonely imaginings.

"are you wearing a green polo shirt and wearing sandals with 23 on them?" the text message read.

i looked around but don't see her. i pressed the call feature of my cellphone when her cellphone number was on my screen. it rang thrice before she answered in her sweet voice.

"where are you, i've been waiting for more than 2 hours?" i said.

"i'm sorry, i got caught up from a previous engagement. my friend just arrived from mindanao and we had dinner and it became harder for me to free myself from him the longer we chatted. i'm so sorry!"

"well, anyway, now i know why you ditched me. have a fun time with your friend", i said back.

"no, he's gone now. if you still want to meet me, i'm in the entertainment center wearing a red cap! i'm really sorry!"

so, off i went inside ayala again. went way past the only guard i know in ayala center who is indifferent. you could bring a bag big enough to contain a groud to air explosive and he still won't care! went to Bo's Cafe (one of her favorite place) but didn't find her there. When I went out, she waived her hand from the side of Tequilla Joe's.

there she was, standing tall, beautiful, with the loveliest smile and big round innocent looking eyes just staring at me. it made me feel all tingly all over when i realized that this wonderful person is doing nothing but look, wait and smile at me. she made me feel like a kid inside a toy store and looking straight into the eyes of the biggest and newest toy available for my pleasure. i felt really happy and really excited at the same time.

"i thought you were wearing a red cap?" i asked

she laughed. it sounded like the sweetest symphony i've heard for that day!

"i was just here when you passed by to go inside Bo's Coffee and when you came out to look for me. i thought you saw me coz you looked at me for a little while", she said

"well, if you've just said that you were wearing a maroon cap instead of red, i would've approached you then!", i said laughing with her

"maroon or red, aren't they in the same family?"

we both laughed then.

we spent the next few hours talking and walking around the mini park outside of ayala. we talked about our childhood (some really bad experiences are similar), how things affected us, favorites, pet peeves, music, movies, etc.

as we were doing this, it got me more excited when i know that she's looking at me or when our skin brushed. so, i made sure to be as near her as possible. sometimes, while she talked, i placed my hand along her backside to appear as if i'm guiding her (in reality i was savoring what seemed to be an electric current passed from her skin to mine). sometimes, i look at her eyes while she's talking and i feel so hopelessly drawn towards her. on that night, under the canopy of the trees in the ayala mini park and the myriad twinkling stars above - i have slowly rebuild my faith in love.

at around midnight, i asked her if she would like to continue our conversation in the beach as it would be very relaxing and soothing to have our feet in the sand or the water while talking. and without pause she accepted the invitation.

each second that we spent with each other made me feel like i have already found someone that i know will make me happy and contented in life.

someone who will love me for what i am, who i am and who i will become.

someone i will devote all my life loving and making happy.

someone i am glad to call my wife.

apology accepted...

i understand what you are going through.

thank you for understanding me too...

HOW LONG MUST I BE PUNISHED FOR THE THINGS I DIDN'T DO?

HOW MUCH PAIN SHOULD I ENDURE FOR OTHER PEOPLE'S MISTAKES?

HOW FAR SHOULD I GO WITH THIS HUMILIATION BEFORE YOU CAN SAY THAT I AM TRUE TO MY WORDS?

I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!

I DID NOT DO ANYTHING WRONG!

I AM HONEST AND TRUE!

NOW, MY HEAD IS ACHING!

there will always be problems mi querida...

and i will always be here for you...

para siempre, mi amor!

THANK YOU FOR YOUR GREETING CARD!!!

THANK YOU FOR THIS...





YOU HAVE MADE MY BIRTHDAY EXTRA SPECIAL!!!

eres todo en mi.... mi querida

i received this from you.

now, i'm overjoyed.

thank you.


oye mi amor....yo queria decirte que lo amo tanto! tu eres mi vida. sin ti soy nadie. sin tu amor, mi vida es hueco. gracias que te encuentro. gracias que veniste a mi vida. ese dia me salvo, tu recuerdas que lo paso? mi dijiste que yo tenia algo mal y me curaste! nunca te olvidare....NUNCA! TE AMO PARA SIEMPRE!

imaginame sin ti....

this is one of your favorite songs...

you sang this back to me when i sang "perdido sin ti" to you...

now that you're gone

all i ever do is

download versions of your favorite song

listen

get depressed

long for you

feel how happy i was when we were together

weep....

because it's very painful to "imagine me without you!"

IMAGINAME SIN TI

Mientras brillen las estrellas
Y los ríos corran hacia el mar
Hasta el día en que tu vuelvas
Sé que no te dejaré de amar

Si escucharas mi lamento
Si me vieras volverías,
Ya he pagado un alto precio
Por el mal que yo te hacía

Soy culpable ya lo sé
Y estoy arrepentido, te pido

Imagíname sin tí,
Y regresarás a mi
Sabes que sin tu amor,
nada soy
Que no podré sobrevivir
Imagíname sin tí
Cuando mires mi retrato
Si algo en tí, queda de mí
Regresa por favor,
Imagíname sin tí

Se ha borrado mi sonrisa
Y la lluvia no ha cesado,
SI supieras como duele
El no tenerte aqui a mi lado

Soy culpable ya lo sé
Y estoy arrepentido, te pido

Imagíname sin tí,
Y regresarás a mí
Sabes que sin tu amor,
nada soy
Que no podré sobrevivir
Imagíname sin tí
Cuando mires mi retrato
Si algo en tí, queda de mí
Regresa por favor,
Imagíname sin ti

PERDIDO SIN TI...

Quedate cada noche
Y suename en la luna
Amame por las calles
perdidas de mi vida
Besame poco a poco
No sea que me muera
Vive con este loco
Perdido que te quiere

Si me hace falta tu presencia
Yo me pierdo buscandote
Cierro mi vida, cierro para mi
El libro blanco de mi vida
El libro blanco de mi vida

Perdido sin ti
No me dejes solo
Sin ti

Quedate en mi casa
I love you
Sin ti me falta todo
I need you
Sin ti no queda nada

Estoy perdido
no me dejes solo
Sin ti
Quedate en mi casa
No te vayas
Sin ti me falta todo
Esperate
Sin ti no queda nada

Amor
Quedate
Amor
Quedate
Toda la vida
Quedate
Perdido sin ti

Guardate en mi memoria
Y escondete en mis brazos
Metete por los poros
Abiertos de mi herida
mirame desde cerca
Y matame si quieres
Pero no me abandones
Al viento de mi vida

Se me falta tu presencia
Yo me pierdo buscandote
Cierro mi vida, cierro para mi
El libro blanco de mi vida
El libro blanco de mi vida

holding on...

a newborn patient died last night and while the parents were weeping, they said, "thank you baby for giving us the opportunity to be with you and care for you even for just 3 weeks. thank you baby for giving us the chance to love you even for a little while!"

i almost cried right there and then because that's exactly how i feel for you (minus the dying part)!

you entered my life without a warning and instantly my pathetic existence was assaulted with so much joy and contentment. i was never looking for love or commitment because they never made me happy before. when you came it's like as if everything in my life turned 360* and you brought more meaning and happiness into my life than a couple of years i have living alone and pretending i was happy and contented. you have no idea how happy you made me while you were with me everyday for a little more than a month. you have no idea how much you made me feel so loved and lucky to have found you. and i would like to take this opportunity to let you know that i love you very, very much and that i would be very lucky if you give me the chance to love you and care for you until we're old. i have to tell you these because you deserved these and more.

i don't want to let you go without telling you how great you are...

i don't want to let you go without telling you how lucky i am that you messaged me first...

i don't want to let you go without saying thank you for giving me the opportunity to love you and care for you...

i don't want to let you go without saying i love you very much...

i don't want to let you go!

minus one is the loneliest number...

the small room seemed a whole lot bigger and colder now...

the bed, which contains your smell, feels hostile to my body...

the bathroom doesn't seem inviting anymore...

the food never seemed less edible than now...

i think i'm still breathing, i'm not sure though...

i think this is life...

now that you are gone!

Bisaya Online EB (Sweet Surrender)

soydecebu, ckela and bf, little girl, mags, lady_yuna, dhedi, rasta_dubbed, pazuzu690, tindak_gihapon & james...

mi querida

i have been happy before but never this extatic...

i have been loved in countless ways but yours gave me a new definition of bliss...

i have been very thankful in the past...

but i want to take this opportunity to thank you for making me happy and for giving me this chance to love you my way!

you have no idea how happy and loved you made me feel...

and i'm taking this chance that you gave me to make you feel the same way.

A TRUE FRIEND'S PLEDGE

Are you tired of all those "sissy-ass" friendship poems that always sound good but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that really speaks of true friendship

1. When you are sad: I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry ass who made you sad!
2. When you are blue: I will dislodge what is choking you!
3. When you smile: I will know you finally got laid!
4. When you are scared: I will rag on you about it every chance i get!
5. When you are worried: I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining!
6. When you are confused: I will use little words!
7. When you are sick: Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have!
8. When you fall: I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass!

This is my oath. I pledge this till the end.

"Why?" you may ask, because you are my friend.

Send this to 10 of your closest friends, then get depresssed because you can only think of 4!

Remember:
A good friend will help you move on.

A really good friend will help you move a body.

Let me know if I ever need to bring a shovel!

not bad at all...

okay, so, the meaning of christmas, for a couple of decades now, has always been overshadowed by consumerism and commercialism...

this is the philippines, so, it's worse here. let me tell you why.

when the months start to hit "ber" (which of course starts with september) the filipino malls and most establishments start playing/broadcasting over the PA familiar christmas songs and the not-so-familiar and the "just plain irritating" version of any imaginable christmas song/jingle in such a way that when christmas actually arrives - you don't like hearing them anymore because it will cause you to vomit and turn psycho!

at the same time that these songs start, the christmas commercials also start.

christmas specials in september, october, november and december.

christmas' meaning gets lost in all these.

it's like the gold lost its luster.

however tragic this may seem i am fortunate to have with me my family this christmas.
they have ushered a new version of the meaning of christmas.
they have made me feel how a person should feel in times of giving and loving.
they are the reason why there is a christmas.

yes, christmas for me is nothing but a rest day. yes, i don't like the way christmas is being treated in this country. yes, christmas songs make me puke.

and yes, i am having a very merry christmas because i am loved.

i sincerely wish you the same thing.

stella and I...

my new one...

doesn't even look like me...

lol

leeches...

i'm just pissed off...

there's a lot of those puta madres en mi place de trabajar!!!

mierda!!!

she asked me to contribute...

i said yes..

and, yes, we are friends and we have met a couple of times...

madz's not so great idea...

welcome to the beginning of the end...

anyway, madz asked me to be a contributor of her blog and naturally i felt honored, flattered and confused because the first thing that went inside my mind was "how the hell do we do that?"

and naturally (again), i asked her in all honesty... "how (expletive deleted coz she's a lady) do we do that?"....

a communication in our yahoo IM 's happened and to make the short story shorter...

here i am!open, raw and, well, slightly evil.welcome to the beginning of the end.

oh, and, let the show begin!


http://madzrhyz.blogspot.com/

le fate ignoranti

for

the seven years we spent together, for the part of you i miss, that

part i'll never have, for everytime you said: "i can't", and for

everytime you said: "i'll come back".





forever waiting, can i call my patience, "love"?

FEEL

come and hold my hand


i wanna contact the living





not sure i understand


this role i've been given...





(robbie williams)

feliz dia de los muertos!!!

this is the altar that i used to place you in...


i used to offer flowers and candle to you...


you used to give me internal peace and joy...


now, would it be too much to pray for your return?

somewhere amongst these tombs you have buried that part of me that keeps on breaking...





waiting for you to give it life again...

right here waiting....

uncomplaining...

patient...

wanting...

longing...

rusted and battered...

but not without life...

be here again...

make me...

your angel again...

pascal

le coeur a ses raisons que la raison connoit pas!

at fruits and foods with students...

andrea and zach...

with the "maya's" from section P...

some of the buotan sections...

(lol)

alyssa milano

"being that we're all animals, you learn in the safari that monogamy is not natural!!!"

still?

it has been long since i last saw you.

you still have that gorgeous long black straight hair that i loved so much about...

still have that lovely angelic face that i went so crazy about...

still have that knock-out smile that sent shivers through my spine...

still have that killer body that i used to worship as my temple...

i looked at you for a long time...

then i got bored and thought of someone else instead.


it's funny how time changes a person.

you might still be that same lovable person...

but i'm not the same loving person anymore...

i have changed like you've always wanted me to!

thank you.

now, i'm better!

7th annual Chancellor's Cup Bowling Tournament

real men aren't afraid to wear pink.... (they are only afraid of their wives!)

job shift!

i've been thinking a lot lately about changing jobs/work....

but in the interest of NOT BEING ARRESTED, you just have to email me your questions...

new motto

THE ROMANS DID NOT CONQUER THE WORLD BY ATTENDING BOARD MEETINGS - THE KILL THOSE WHO OPPOSE THEM!

ENOUGH

i am nothing special. of this i am sure.
i am a common man with common thoughts.
i've lived a common life.
there are no monuments dedicated to me.
and my name will soon be forgotten.
but i've loved another with all my heart and soul.
and for me, this has always been enough!

people from work!

c'est moi!

"most people would rather be a sheep and have company, than stand out on their own with antlers on!"

tori amos

Malena

"... i peddaled faster as if escaping from longing, from innocence, from love.
many years have passed and i have loved many women.

when they were holding me in their arms, they asked if i will remember them, and i said: "i will always remember you!"

but the only one i have never forgotten was the one who didn't ask..."

FAMOUS ALCOHOLIC QUOTES

DISCLAIMER: KIDS, DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME!


"Sometimes when I reflect back on all the wine I drink I feel shamed. Then I look into the glass and think about the workers in the vineyards and all of their hopes and dreams If I didn't drink this wine, they might be out of work and their dreams would be shattered. Then I say to myself, "It is better that I drink this wine and let their dreams come true than be selfish and worry about my liver." - Jack Handy

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may leave you wondering what the hell happened to your bra and panties.

"I feel sorry for people who don't drink. When they wake up in the morning, that's as good as they're going to feel all day." - Frank Sinatra

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may lead you to think people are laughing WITH you.

"Without question, the greatest invention in the history of mankind is beer. Oh, I grant you that the wheel was also a fine invention, but the wheel does not go nearly as well with pizza." - Dave Barry

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may cause you to tell your friends over and over again that you love them

To some it's a six-pack, to me it's a Support Group. Salvation in a can! - Dave Howell

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may make you think you can logically converse with members of the opposite sex without spitting.

And saving the best for last, as explained by Cliff Clavin, of Cheers. One afternoon at Cheers, Cliff Clavin was explaining the Buffalo Theory to his buddy Norm.
Here's how it went:

"Well ya see, Norm, it's like this... A herd of buffalo can only move as fast as the slowest buffalo. And when the herd is hunted, it is the slowest and weakest ones at the back that are killed first This natural selection is good for the herd as a whole, because the general speed and health of the whole group keeps improving by the regular killing of the weakest members. In much the same way, the human brain can only operate as fast as the slowest brain cells. Excessive intake of alcohol, as we know, kills brain cells. But naturally, it attacks the slowest and weakest brain cells first. In this way, regular consumption of beer eliminates the weaker brain cells, making the brain a faster and more efficient machine. That's why you always feel smarter after a few beers."

here's lookin at you kid!

dreamboy (i wish!)

journal entry

saturday. 3:30 am.

no friends.
no bar scene.
no alcohol.

alone in the dark.

awake.
can't sleep.

still waiting
and hoping
that father time
will heal
that part of me
that keeps on
breaking...

with the cool padre and brother from tabor hills... lunch time pics in binaliw...

lunch with one of the coolest priests in the world... good luck padre (the one in a black and white polo and glasses) on your missionary work...

on the way to agpasan for our show... before the jeepers-bloopers event...

immersion 05 with level III - E (binaliw staff house)

deep sleep... BLISS!

nothing... just nothing better to do...

trying to appear as if i'm stopping the car with my own strength... as if... (told you i've nothing better to do...)

in mabolo outside the house... still with nothing to do...

in mabolo doing nothing on a weekend...

hello? hello?

i watch you move so gracefully towards me...

your beauty outshining everything on the street...

body full of warmth...

your hair flowing gently with the breeze...

you walk past me...

and i caught a glimpse of your eyes...

they are distant and cold...

they tell me i do not exist...

i am nothing!

assurance...

went to the ICU of a hospital a while ago.

i saw people hanging to a very thin thread, fighting for dear life.

you can feel their determination even when they are not moving or waking...

the doctors and nurses attending to their every need gives them the love and compassion they need in such a time....

they are hooked to monitors and various machines telling them that their cause is not lost...

they are still in the world of the living...

and i look at myself...

i am not connected to anything signifying that i contain life...

i don't have doctors and nurses making me feel warmth...

so, really, what's my assurance that i'm still alive?

letter

It’s never easy giving a letter a start after the end of a relationship. But I have come to a point where everything in my life is divided into only two parts – before and after you. And I have to at least, in some way, let you know that, if only in baring my pain to you help me sustain my grip on reality in this indifferent world. Before us, I’ve always thought that for whatever it is, if it was given an end, it is terminated, done with, and never to be dealt with again. Then I realized, you were the beginning of a lot of the best things that ever happened to me. You were a catalyst for some of the major changes that I have so gladly embraced. Changes that for the years to come would serve as the defining characteristics of my being. And it’s never easy to part with someone I have not only come to regard as someone being with me, but also, someone in me. I know that as far as you are concerned, to you, I’m just one of those characters in the after in the before and after scenes that pass by your life. I know that you probably have not the slightest inkling in thinking of me again. And that you want me to let everything go and just move on. I know you mean well but how can I? While you were the story of my life, you were also a cliffhanger. While you were the fruit orchard that my soul and my dreams walked naked, you were also the iron gate that caught my skin and ripped my body open. And I just couldn’t walk away from a part of me and never look back. It’s true that you were the sweetest torment I have ever ventured upon. But it’s also true that I have never regretted any point in our relationship. I was always looking forward to being with you. I don’t think anyone could ever find regret in having a life. You were my life. If I have never made you feel that, I’m sorry. You were. If I have made a lousy display of my affection, I apologize. While these all pertain to events in an elapsed time, I have two great concerns in the present. First, is that, I miss you. I do. You were, after all, and still are, an addiction. A breath of fresh air in the polluted and pungent city atmosphere, so to speak. This is true and not just some cheap, outdated “guy modus operandi” to lure you back to something you tried to run away from. Second, is that, I would really want to know what happened. And being imperfect as I am, please tell me where I have gone wrong and what I should have done to be that guy you have always wanted to have but never had while with me. I know I never came close to “the next best thing” that ever happened to you but I think I deserve at least a semi-educated, semi-literate, semi-civilized conversation, if only it were to end a relationship, a life, a we. That, and an explanation at least. You may not anymore want me as I am but at least help me see the faults that I made and make myself better. Give me also an occasion to air myself out to you. Give me at least a chance to hear you say it to me in a nice way. A chance to see your face when you break it to me. Maybe feel what you’re feeling. Maybe see your visions. Maybe be with you again…

bunyag

my baby alfonz aris' bunyag

my godbaby alfonz aris

just like godtatay - a real heartbreaker...

downward spiral...

Down once more
to the dungeon
of my black despair!
Down we plunge
to the prison
of my mind!
Down that path
into darkness
deep as hell!

Why, you ask,
was I bound and chained
in this cold and dismal place?
Not for any
mortal sin, but the
wickedness of
my abhorrent face!

(courtesy of phantom of the opera)

kiat lang gihapon ug mga nawng.

college buds... real friends... forever friends...

college friends... old friends... gold friends...

derek and i... (it's his wedding so i give everyone the

right to say he's cuter - but only for that day!)

another party. my eyes are getting heavy. not obvious, huh?

do not stand at my grave and weep

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there
I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glint on snow
I am the sunlight on ripened grain
I am the autumn rain
When you wake in the morning hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of birds in flight
I am the stars that shine at night
Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not thereI do not sleep

daydream

solitude’s heart afire,
loneliness, roam and wander,
singular self in dire
need of company’s laughter.

far away, distant look,
nobody’s around,
no soul abound
in this path I took.

here, i ponder,
i sigh, i wonder,
waiting, arms reaching,
for love – longing.

not dreaming
to be lothario,
not wishing
to be cassanova, too.

all asked for:
the warmth, the pleasures,
the love, the caress,
worth more than treasures.

looking for –
i grope like blind.
hoping, waiting for
that perfect love – i find!

me, in quotes

Be more concerned with your character than your reputation. Your character is what you really are while your reputation is merely what others think you are.
~ John Wooden

I would warn you that I do not attribute to nature either beauty or deformity, order or confusion. Only in relation to our imagination can things be called beautiful or ugly, well-ordered or confused.
~ Benedict Spinoza

To be nobody-but-myself in a world which is doing its best, night and day to make me everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting.
~ E. E. Cummings

All animals are equal, but some are more equal than others.
~ George Orwell, Animal Farm

I don't mind straight people as long as they act gay in public.
~ T-shirt worn by Dennis Rodman of the Chicago Bulls during a network-TV interview

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